If you've ever watched "House" the doctor tv series you know where that title came from. I think he was exactly right. Met with my manager yesterday and talked to her about my symptoms and the problems I'm having with cognition. BIG MISTAKE .... Anyway I ramble on trying to get to the point. I need to go part-time. Well we don't have a part time position open over there. Can I job share? I don't know, they would still have to pay benefits to two different people then. Basically they don't give a rat's ass. They just want me to leave. Two of the laziest able bodied healthy people I work with took it upon themselves to say they are having to work too hard because of me. boo hoo. I know I need to forgive them, but right now I just want to whip both of their asses. The pain of that hurt is almost equal to the pain of losing my ability to be a nurse. Doesn't help anything that I work for the most heartless, don't give a crap hospital in the country. My emotions are a freakin mess. The stress of this is making the ms worse. Xanax is my best friend. All I want to do is sleep. Wake up and all this would have been a nightmare. I don't know weather to fight for my job or just give up. I'm slower and I take longer to do things. But I can do them. I've never felt this betrayed and alone in my life. Curt's only concern is money. Want's me to "help" him by talking to him about it etc. I need a shrink. I'm so damn depressed right now I could scream. If you are reading this just so you know, I don't usually curse this much but the situation warrants it.
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