Facing each day

Well the thing I'm learning the last few days is proving to be valuable.  I have to put some effort into changing the way I think about this monster. They say "You don't get MS, until you get MS" There's so much truth to that.  I've got to stop expecting people to understand what's going on with me every day, every minute and every second of every day. Now, does it matter that they don't understand? Not really... It's human nature I guess to want somebody to walk through this junk with you. The only person who can make this easier on myself is me. Yes, it does feel like yet another task I must complete in order to live a "normal" life. Or at least a life that looks normal, and makes me feel a part of everything instead of a bystander wishing I could do XYZ myself.   Stopping myself from talking about it is a major hurdle for me to leap. I've always aired my whole life to close friends and my husband and daughter.  However, this is different. This leaves people feeling powerless. Because ultimately nobody can do anything about it or "fix" it. Plus, I'm certain it gets on just about everybody's nerves. :D  So far so good. I've tried really hard to keep any thoughts feelings aches or pains etc. to myself the last week or so. Done much better this weekend by giving my poor husband a break from the MS vomit that usually spews out of my mouth. One day at a time. One step at a time. I will take the power from the monster. I will regain of my life.